the SUPERSTAR collection [goodbye]

(RED)EFINE

2007-01-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

THE SUPERSTAR COLLECTION HAS ALREADY MOVED TO THE RED COLLECTION

THE RED COLLECTION
VERSION 7.1
(RED)EFINE

THE RED COLLECTION

2006-09-30T10:51:00.000+08:00

the last official post.

2006-04-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

say goodbye.

the last kiss.

shifted to: http://theredcollection.tblog.com

the launch of the RED collection.

the new beginning.

the new journey.

my undying love.

the truth

2006-04-05T08:54:00.000+08:00

i thought we were different.

i thought you were different.

i thought i knew you.

i'm wrong.

extremely wrong.

i feel betrayed.

i'm utterly disappointed.

i'm terribly upset.

i guess my expectations are too high.

you're suddenly so distant from me.

so far,

sao far away...

all these...

are just too sudden.

yes, i cannot accept it.

your wonderful image in me- all ruined.

i hate you for what you did.

i really do.

all the love...

all the time...

all our effort...

all that's said...

all that's lost...

i hate myself for being so silly, so stupid, so naive.

as much as how much i hate you now.

i equally hate myself too.

my heart- ached.

my heart- shattered.

my heart- scared.

i'm lost.

i really am...

coming soon...

2006-04-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

the RED collection

COMING SOON...

sentosa series 07(part II): sand!

2006-03-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

*photos by n megastar*

see how i'm being bullied by the meanie.
meanie still gloating some more.

then he still laughs at your work.
adults these days. gees!!

view version 2 of the island's story here -> n megastar's Blog

sentosa series 07: the monkeys

2006-03-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

down at the island!
sunshine! =D

the fella who always come to steal the scene!

monkeys on the walk! =D

oh my god!
look at that ass!

here come the monkeys again!

as the monkeys bid goodbye...

the piggy sleeping.

another shot before we end the day at the island! =D
till the next time!~

a saint's life chapter 1 debut

2006-03-23T09:00:00.000+08:00

it's me in the library again! =D

heard that my little juniors from GESS are coming to SA! =D

gonna go see them in a while.. =D

if the sun's up later, it's off to the island!~ =D

the 4 basic expressions

2006-03-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

when stoning in the library today.
i did these:

le =P

i know i'm narcissistic.

don't blame me
coz
i love myself.

just b'coz you don't love yourself as much doesn't mean i can't love myself.

talk to the hand. =P

upandon

2006-03-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

someone new to SA(who's now in SA) asked this today. "What's upandon?"

it's UP AND ON!

the quality of ties and printing these days..

gees!!..

the korean/jap reporting on the first day of term two =D

me - the taurus

2006-03-19T14:06:00.000+08:00

a quiet, simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you.

mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body.

eyes sparkle with liveliness.

even when in love, he is still a free wild bird.

he is a sand in your palm.

the more you want to hold it, it will slip out.

when you're with him, he will think only of you.

but an hour later, he could change his mind.

he is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself.

his world always turning and it will not stop

just because he loves you.

if he's upset, he will show it right away.

he's sincere to his friends

even to some friends he does not like.

he likes to do odd things and surprise other people.

he does not care what people think when he behaves weirdly.

he could be walking bare feet

and laughing at people who laugh at him

and think they're so narrow-minded.

he will interest in a life of a millionaire

as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk vendor.

he likes to search and analyze people and things.

he can not easily understand things,

so he will gradually learn about you till he fills up all his questions.

he knows so many people,

but he has a few friends.

he looks for quality friends than quantity friends.

he will be close with some friends shortly and move on.

he always feel lonely even surrounded by many people.

he could create his own little world,

and sometimes no one would understand him.

he looks only for future

and he thinks he lives for the future.

he may wonder how many people think like he does,

but he does not want to be like the others.

a man with a conflict personality.

he is cool, understanding, able to work well and very artistic.

he is a free spirit who likes venture,

but when he wants to be alone,

do not touch him but let him be.

he won't disappear from the crowds too long.

he will be back.

he will give you straightforward opinion or comments,

but will never advice what he thinks you should do

as he does not like people to tell him what he should do too.

he will use his brain and not his body strength,

so he will just let other guys compete.

he has a certain satisfactory in life and hates to force himself in competition.

he may seem careless,

but actually, he is a thinker and a stubborn one.

he does not easily trust people till he thinks he knows them well. (only true sometimes)

you can just smile and he will think why and what are you smiling about, or if you are pretending.

once he trusts you and accept you as a friend,

no one can say otherwise to change that for he will not listen to gossip. (depends)

he will be honest and sincere to his friends.

he hates lies, so he will not tell you lies.

if he finds it necessary to lie,

he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything.

if he really has to lie,

you will never be able to tell that he is lying.

he can really keep secrets, (yes, i can!)

so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul.

Hell for him is "No Freedom",

so if he marrys you,

then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life.

always be interesting, then you could have him beside you.

*

i'm slowly recovering from a fever of 39.6 deg C.

it's back to school tmr!

i still haven't finished enjoying the hols! =(

oh well..

*

you're the best thing that ever occurred in my life.

i mean it.

maybe one day..

2006-03-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

maybe one day,

i'll love you.

maybe one day,

we'll be together.

maybe one day,

you'll leave me.

*

all i want

is just to stay by you

forever.

sentosa series 06: the hot and the crowded

2006-03-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

the start of the day on the island.
on tram to tanjong beach.
darn, it's damn crowded.
and so, decided to give siloso a skip.
and i just realised it's the school hols today! lol.

don't you just simply love ~~the topless~~ me. oops =X

look who's tryin' ta snatch my limelight. ha.

right after my shower =D

ending off the day at the island at coffee bean with my fave vanilla! =D

*phew*
it was hot and not to mention the crowd.
till the next time!~ =D

rebon

2006-03-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

hh. superstar forever.

my desired rebon-ed fringe at last!

i love my hair now.

i love myself.

don't blame me for being narcissistic.

i'm just being myself.

don't like my style?

it's your problem then.

i live for myself.

not you.

and talk to the hand coz the face don't wanna listen ;P

*

the mouth practice.

don't ya simply love it? ;P

i love ya! =D

3 - the gathering

2006-03-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

waiting for bus to Marina Sq =D

preview of 2 pics that'll be up for my new blog design! =P

that's me again with the help of the other 2 hua pings as the photographers ;P

another poser shot. what's fish doin?!

yeah. i can be bitchy at times ;P

another shot before we end the day =D

to my other two dearest hua pings. sorry for being so bitchy yesterday. had not really bitch around for the previous 2 months without the both of you. i love you gals! =D

the new identity

2006-03-11T20:58:00.000+08:00

it wasn't known to all.

it wasn't official.

but now,

i'm declaring it.

yes,

i'm Red.

it's no fashion boo-boo to be all red.

i love red.

thus,

i love myself =)

the camera loves me - uniform fetish!

2006-03-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

the camera loves me -
uniform fanzy series =P

the new class

2006-03-10T16:39:00.000+08:00

me, colleen and jaslyn in civics.

the schoolboy =D

let's hope everything will go well in 06S08 for the next two years! =D

Saintaldeia 02 finale =D

2006-03-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

OG 19's masterpiece.

checking myself out on my phone again =P

OG dinner at Pizza Hut at PS =P

my snowy pizza =P

part of OG 19 =D

disco nite sucked tonight. 01's disco nite had much more fun! =P

oh well, i still miss OG 13 but i love OG 19 too ;P

the straight.

2006-03-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

the straight fringe. i like it! =P

SAJC OG 19 (2nd intake 2006)!
i love my new OG and OGL, Gen! =D

that's of coz me checking on myself again in class =P

ILOVEMYSELF.

sajc induction 2006

2006-03-07T22:04:00.000+08:00

-_-

one word -

exhausting!!

*

i'm still missin' your presence..

hang on there ;)

i walked..

2006-03-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

1605

alone,

i walked..

esplanade

clarke quay

riverside

grand copthorne

...

numerous bridges

many underpasses

roads

sgh

home

1730

*

i miss...

going to your house

hanging out in your room

lazing in your bed

hugging you tightly to sleep

you watching me sleep

walking around with you.

most importantly,

i miss ...

you.

the new hairdo

2006-03-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

the messy look.
nope. it's not for school!! =P

select 6 word that best describe me!
go to this link!
it'll only take 5 min! =P

the new car

2006-03-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

my uncle finally got his new car today and it's in my favourite red colour! =D

had a heart-pumping experience in his car coz i've never, in my life, seen him drive! lol!

well, that means i'll have another driver to ferry me around next time!

hmmm but i still prefer my current driver! *winks* =P

i miss you!!!

*

select 6 word that best describe me!
go to this link!
it'll only take 5 min! =P

*

the thought of you.

my undying love..

eye

2006-03-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

love me,
hh.

select 6 word that best describe me!
go to this link!
it'll only take 5 min! =P

the walk

2006-03-01T19:22:00.000+08:00

i'm so pro-SA =P
i like my new uniform! =P

walked from esplanade to chinatown today =D

walking from place to place gives you a different and refreshing feeling! =D
walking is fun! =D

select 6 word that best describe me!
go to this link!

*

i miss you!! =D
but i don't wanna be your chub ;P

i'm not..

2006-02-27T19:06:00.000+08:00

i'm ok.
because i'm just pretending to be.

what do you think of me?
go to this link!

what do you think about me?

2006-02-26T14:57:00.000+08:00

go to this link!

i don't... belong

2006-02-26T14:28:00.000+08:00

strolling down the streets.

the lights.

the sound.

the mood.

the people.

i don't feel like any part of them.

*

no place to go.

nobody's home
to dry my eyes.

broken inside out.

i'm lost.
totally lost.

don't find me..

duh

2006-02-25T10:08:00.000+08:00

the sainty himbo =P
my new uniform! how's that? =P

*

support SAJC Dance's SAINTSATION at Danceworks TODAY! =D
Time: 1300h
Venue: Marina Square

work dance

2006-02-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

music

makes me

lose control.

dance all my life.

school life chapter 5

2006-02-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

seriously, people should just stop laughing at their teachers' mistakes.

it may be funny.

but too much of it is

so lame.

school life chapter 4

2006-02-22T12:13:00.000+08:00

i'm a Catholic High boy for the day! =D

white top.

green shorts.

peace.

past

2006-02-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

don't look back at your shadows.

don't ponder on your past.

*

i wanted to be independent of you.

but i can't.

i wanted to become an angel.

your only angel.

but i'm not the only one.

but not anymore.

useless brat

2006-02-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

i finally realised how useless i am.

forget me.

i'm just like a star,
falling helplessly.

*

i can make people smile.

why can't i do the same for myself?

*

i yearned to be an angel.

not anymore now.

crashing crash

2006-02-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

crashing jjc n pjc is a bore.

thought there'd be more fun.

but least it was fun when we almost got into trouble with the security guard and the bookshop auntie at jj, eh vic? lol =P

well, it's back to SA for me tmr! =D
chichiwawa
chichiwawa
SA SA! =P

finally got the mini version of fann's car with izzah's help.
thanks my lil' daughter! =D

lick me

2006-02-15T17:40:00.000+08:00

burnt.

totally burnt.

i'm really hot now..

ouch..

*

v day was great! ;)

i received my fair share of gifts too, cy!! =P

lick me.

touch me.

feel me.

island life on v day!

2006-02-14T09:32:00.000+08:00

i'm off to the island!! =D

happy V day! =D

30S

2006-02-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

SA, here i come ;)

dance, all my life.

*

confessions on a dance floor.

hung up.

don't cry for me

coz i'll find my way.

accept

2006-02-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

after all the anticipation.

rejoice.

cry.

let loose.

unleash.

but.

at the end of the day,

accept

accept reality.

life's full of surprises.

expect the unexpected.

*

falling star
is not falling any more.

falling star
is picking up
from where it fell.

school life chapter 3

2006-02-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

tears of the night.

my tears drop in the nights

b'coz of you.

why does it always have to be like that.

heart / broken

*

i'm still a falling star

everyone wanna see how i fall.

everybody's watching me like I'm some kind of show.
everybody's watching.

they don't really know me now,
forever.

anticipate

anticipate

2006-02-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

everyone's expecting that much.
they think that everything's a should.

people fall.

i fall too.

i'm just like a falling ~~angel~~ star.

as a falling star,

everyone wanna see how i fall.

everybody's watching me like I'm some kind of show.
everybody's watching.

they don't really know me now,
forever.

anticipate

under cover

2006-02-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

keep everything under cover.

keep everything a secret.

never let anything be revealed.

shhh...

let's just keep this little secret to ourselves

as we hold on together..

truth

2006-02-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

people can take everything away from me.
but they can't take the truth away.

the question is, can you handle my truth?

*

you're everything i know
that makes me believe
i'm not alone.

and it's only you..

school life chapter 2

2006-02-06T08:59:00.000+08:00

i'm having my Monday Blues!

just feeling so tired.

everyone is so eager for the release of the O Level results. the anxious mood is everywhere!

but the thing is, i don't feel anxious at all!

i really don't know why.

actually, i don't wish to know.

please don't pin too high hopes on me.

i don't wanna disappoint everyone, including myself.

just cast me aside.

forget that i've always done well.

***

and it's only me~! ;)

unique

2006-02-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna resemble anyone.

i don't wanna be like anyone.

i wanna be me.

i wanna be myself.

i am myself.

but suddenly,

i dont feel myself.

i'm trapped.

i can't do anything to differ.

i can only not be that person.

i can only not be myself.

ain't there alternatives?

i'm seeking what i've lost -

myself.

beat of my heart

2006-02-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

this is specially for you.

it is to the beat of my heart.
as well as to the beat of your heart.

*

i'm thinking about letting it out
i wanna give in
i wanna go out

been looking around
i finally found
the rythm of love
the feeling of sound

it's making a change
the feeling is strange
it's coming right back
right back in my range

not worried about anything else
i'm waking up

to the beat of my heart
it tears us apart
the beat of my heart
now im back to the start

i'm up from my down
i turn it around
i'm making it back
i'm not gonna drown

i'm taking a stance
i wont miss a chance
i want you to see
i'm not scared to dance

the way that you feel could never be real
i want you to know
i finished the deal
so i'm sayin' to you
i'll always be true to the rythm inside

to the beat of my heart
it tears us apart
the beat of my heart
now i'm back to the start

away.

school life debut chapter 1

2006-02-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

in the library at SA now.

bored.

*

i'm lost.

i'm finding my way.

someday, i'll find my way home,

again.

find my way to where i really belong..

change.

2006-02-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

i wonder..

some people don't change, do they?

however,

some other people make drastic changes.

perhaps, it all depends on oneself..

*

sometimes, when you take a step into one of the paths given to you to choose from,

it completely changes your life.

you resent.

you think over and over.

but the step has been made.

you may think that the grass on the other side is always greener.

but.

think again?

since you cannot undo it,

well, i guess it's best to make the best out of what you have.

the choice you made may have been a better choice.

but well, it may not too..

*

treasure.

cherish.

cny 2006

2006-01-30T11:07:00.000+08:00

to start of first, the pic on my Friendster taken with Fann is real! not edited! lol.

well, we had a surprise birthday celebration for her, on her birthday, 27th Jan, at Lucky Chinatown as she was having a rehearsal for the CNY show.

got a chance to chat with her a little too =P yipee! i love Fann! =D

***

did the usual routine to go chinatown and the temple to pray on the eve of chinese new year.

got my ass home only at 3.30am! exhausted -_-

well, many thoughts popped up to my mind as well admist the celebrations..

just wondering why some people could be so inconsiderate sometimes.

during the clearout of stocks, many stallowners of the night market at chinatown are trying to clear their stock.. esp for the taiwanese mochi stalls. but, so many people were crowding that they spilled mochi all over the floor. many people stepped on it...

and as a result, so many people's shoes were stained with those sticky mochi. how bad..

and i really don't understand why people can't take care of their own rubbish. why must they throw them all over the place?

does it mean that b'coz it's a celebration, that's why they can litter anywhere they like? don't they know what the rubbish bins are for? have they ever spare a thought for the cleaners?

***

hmm first day of cny was as usual. keke. food glorious food and also the hongbaos. haha =P

went to watch 'I Not Stupid Too' yesterday nite with my mama too. triggered lots of thoughts swirling in my mind again. haha..

well, i've gotta rush out soon. so i think i'll stop here. will be back soon! =D

happy cny! =D

***

i really hope i can be with ya every moment.

but i know my wish will never come true.

missin' ya every moment..

darkened.

2006-01-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

saints cross country was relatively ok yesterday.. but i wasn't very used to waking up and running 4.8km at 8am in the morning. lol.. but i still love the milo! =D

went home to slip into a pair of slippers before going down to the island with n megastar..

thank god the sun was kind and it shone all day.. woo.. it was hot.. now dark again le. keke. hot hot.. i love the beach! =D

well, sorry to my og for ps-ing them again. keke.. you all everytime give so late notice de. keke.. anyway, you all were also reminded of me with the neoprint machine at the arcade at marina with my pic there! lol.. ooo.. i'm no. 1! woo-hoo! bleah =P

*

i can
hear your
whisperings
by the sea.

the sand.
the water.

the mat.
the umbrella.

the beach.
the island.

i love you
just like i love them all.

why is reality just so cruel?
why can't we just live in a world of our own?

all time hi-low

2006-01-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

went shopping yesterday with my long time pal, Rus for preparation for CNY! =D

well, actually the preparation for CNY is just a bad excuse for me to go out shopping. haha! *evil grin* =)

anyway, i've spent an all time high rate of about $*00 yesterday. it's an all time high coz the money spent is all mine!! no sponsor=( but anyway, i managed to claim back some $$$ too =P

and also, despite that i've finally topped up my ATM card last week, it reached an all-time low saving of $* again.. yes, it's even lesser than the $5 left last time! lol! =P

anyway, i've always trained myself to look at shopping at a different point of perspective. instead of being heart-pain that you've spent your money, look at it as i've gained more things! haha =P so be optimistic about shopping =D

anyway, this is not gonna put a stop to me on shopping.. i'm still gonna shop for more stuff after CNY when all my annual income comes in =D

but, but, but.. i promise to save more in the coming year.. i promise =D

*

let go?

to
the
beat of my heart.

that's why..

2006-01-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

i remembered the first time i saw you.
you had an amazing charm.
and i realised that i wanted to get close to you.

but the second time i saw you, i wasn't that thrilled.
i realised our gap.

is this love or is it you?

i can only keep everything that i wanna say deep down in my heart.
because i just want you to be happy.

i know i will suffer and go through a hard time.
but i'm willing to.

whenever i picture both of you together,
my heart just aches.
my tears just flow.

i just have to bear with the pain..

that's why i have to keep everything to myself..

i love, i wept.

2006-01-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

there's a danger in loving someone too much.

it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.

it's hurting when you realise it's yourself you can't believe.

*

at least i have some confidence in you.

i have none in myself.

*

i love.

i wept.

1245 no more

2006-01-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

went down to the island today! yay! after many weeks without going there, it feels great to return there! =D

well, will be seeing major changes there though. the new bus interchange, the new train service, and many more... woo-hoo! can't wait for the new train service coming this june =D

was supposed to tan but not much of the sun.. oh well..

*

my new timetable sucks big time.. argh. PE's in the darn afternoon and i'll have to wait for 2.5 hours before my last 1 hour period of PE. crap!! =/

no more leaving school exactly at 1245h =(

*

the sea,

the sand,

the trees,

the beach.

the sky in grey

2006-01-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

if you don't ever apppear again,
there's nothing valuable left in my life..

too bad there's not enough time for us
to test out what we call forever..

i'm thinking of you.
but now i'm missing you..

my heart ached.
but now my heart's broken..
my heart's just like a fallen leaf...

i don't know how to last through the night.
every of the lights are put out..

if you never appeared in my world,
will i be happier now?
what kind of life will i lead if you never ever stepped in?

it's just a pity.
a pity that time always break your promise..
break them into pieces too many...

how i am suppose to last through the cold and lonely night?
with every of the lights put out.
with the sky in grey..

to add on.. (part II)

2006-01-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

PS: Casey Leong was really -_- at the Cultural Centre during GP today.. beta not be late for GP.. haha =P

and lastly, I LOVE PARTY GIRLS! =P *LOL*

to add on..

2006-01-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

ok.. i don't think i have much more explanation to do here.. but... the last thing to clear now..

the frequent qn posted to me: are you attached?

well, for the number one millionth and one time, i'm not for the time being..

it's up to you to believe it or not..

i just have extremely close friends.. that's all =D

*

finally got my CG. 06S03! =D yeah.. my first choice =D

but it's kinda weird today coz the whole cycle starts again. i don't know anyone in my CG! =/

now gotta start making new friends again. and this will repeat itself again once Orientation 2 starts.. well, i just hope to stay a Saint, still =D

*

just what is happening between us?

are we gonna be torn apart?

i really enjoyed the time at the park.

but are we gonna have more of such moments together?

I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY!

2006-01-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

firstly, let me thank all the HH blog supporters who have been constantly reading this page! i really appreciate all the reading! thanks lots! i love all of you out there! =D

well, just got to know from someone who have barely known me for two weeks and he's able to tell what kinda person i am, what i like and what i hate just from this blog! haha.. i wanna say i really admire him for reading the hundreds posts of mine. haha. i wouldn't do that man..

it's only NOW then i realised that this blog really reflect alot about me.. is that good or bad? should i erase off the archives so only i can access it? lol..

well, i would like to say SORRY if i've ever offended anyone via my blog.. i really mean no harm.. really.. i don't bite. i just bark =P i'm not as scary as you all think i am but i can get as scary as you all think i am once i'm really really provoked..

well, also gotta pei fu another person that's very close to me too coz i just remembered that he read all my posts before too! lol =D

well, i admit i'm kinda long winded for the more archived posts but if you all did notice, i've tried to shorten my recent posts lor.. so i did put in effort to improve the quality of this page k =D i'll work harder de! =D

for the rest who have been updating yourselves of updates about me via here, thanks for the visits!! =D you've made the right channel *winks*

lastly, i wanna say the past is the past. whatever written is written. whatever said is said. whatever done is done. we can't erase them. but we can always start afresh, start anew.

for me, whatever that was written here is still here, but have all passed. to me, i won't regret what i have did. i will just let it pass me if it's a wrong step taken. moreover, i'm still human. i make mistakes. but will you let it pass? it's all your choice.

however, all the good memories will still stay with me forever..

2006 marks a new life for me. everything's starting from ground level again..

what's in for me? let time be my answer..

many loves to all! =D

no look back

2006-01-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

the choice had been made.

i have stepped over the line.

there is no looking back.

i won't bet up, back up.

the out or mun

up it

because of

i have liked it

you are kind..

*

bright lights shone.

the night breeze blew past.

memories flashed..

wandering aimlessly..

looking at the sea..

my head was full of empty thoughts..

what was i thinking of?

i don't know..

rainy day.

2006-01-08T18:03:00.000+08:00

it's been raining all day long.. gosh..

the Edusave Scholarship presentation today was a bore like previous years too. haha =P

hmm ok.. suddenly i forgot what i wanna blog about again.. there's something i wanna blog la.. argh.. short term memory again -_-'''

ok, anyway, is there something wrong with Friendster? why all my testimonials gone AGAIN ar? keke..

hmm tmr's gonna be the start of lectures.. wonder what it's gonna be like.. haha..

oh ya. i remember le!! hmm due to the dismal these few days, no sun! =(

the trip down to the island yesterday was also postponed coz of the rain.. no sun = no tan. *sob*

i wanna get tanner again!! this weather is not working out.. hmmm please SUN (no. not Stefanie Sun or Ho Yeow Sun), please come out when i need you!! =D

i'll be seeing my beloved 3 cuties tmr! yay! =D

=)~NEILwenwen + fountain =P

Saintaldeia - SAJC Orientation 2006

2006-01-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

Saintaldeia finally came to an end yesterday.

The finale was great of coz. Pity Ivana only won the Best Skit Award only. But to me, it's still the Best Tribe! =P

everyone was brought to the highest point of the Orientation at the hall after the cheering session when the whole hall was transformed into a huge party place! it seemed so much like a rock concert! everyone was jumping up and down and screaming at the top of their voices! haha.

my OG and i of coz joined in the fun too! it had been such a long time that i was so high.. lol. hmm was also sabo-ed by the group to do a dance in front of all of them. well, so had to impromtu some hip-hop coz i think i forgot all the Rendezvous and what have you.. lol. i very shy de lor.. but noblody believe me.. paiseh paiseh..

then the whole of OG 13 went to the nearby Mac for dinner and gossips.. haha.

well, i did promise not to bitch around already but a new *ahem* group was formed yesterday.. there goes my promise.. lol. oh man.. i must really stop bitching around so much. but well, what wrong with guys can bitch around alot? it's just that some gals don't know that guys can bitch alot too! lol =P

PS: lynn (if you ever see this), no thanks for the jie-meis pls.. lol =P

hope you all out there also had fun in your respective JCs! hope to catch up with all of you real soon! i miss everyone! =D

before i leave, as a part of my memory, i leave you with SAJC OG 13 2006..

OG 13 2006

the OGLS

boon kiat
yuan ling

the members

the guys:
maurice
yuda
seng yong
jeremy
ernest
wen han
jinhui
zi yi
hong heng (me!) =D

the gals:
stephanie
audrey
cheryl
tiffany
pamela
xiu hui
hui juan
wan leng
anisha
dorothy
cynthia
lynn
leqi
kai ling
sheena
rowena
joyce
estella

get wet!

2006-01-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

third day of Saintaldeia Orientation 2006.

today's a much much much more fun-filled day.

through the CIP today, got to know and talk to more people and the cheers of coz.. OH MY.. (that's the bimbo part of one cheer) lol.

then came the mass dance again. learnt a much fun-ner Indian dance today.. haha.. and was sabo-ed on stage coz i sabo-ed someone before that -_- moral of the story: don't anyhow sabo people.. lol =P so malu-ating.. me very shy de lor.. paiseh paiseh..

then came the games where different OGs spilted up again for ... wet station games! lol. got wet at the very first station le. and almost gotta take of my shirt!! lol. lucky cannot take off. *phew*

the different games today were of coz very enjoyable.. my fave - the soccer one! lol.. my OG mates was also much more familiarised with each other and of the the team was more united today. yay..

got to socialise more today too. haha. orientation is getting more and more fun! =D but it's ending tomorrow le =( so must treasure. keke..

go OG 13! go Ivana! go Saints! =D

the new SAINT start

2006-01-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

the first day at SAJC was... hmmm... tiring!

it was back to school yesterday.. i haven't really adjusted my timings yet. so im kinda suffering from 'jet-lag' now. lol! =P need sometime before i can get used to school days again.. oh god! there goes my beauty sleep again. lol =P

was so tired yesterday that i was stoning throughout the whole day yesterday. didn't really socialise much only till today when i'm feeling less tired.. keke =P

the orientation yesterday was boring due to the talks. but today's was much better and had much fun but it's more tiring lor..

it's gonna be another 2 long days before the weekends.. haha =P

JC life seems long.. oh god.. can't come online every day le.. i'll miss you guys here =D

it's gonna be a hectic two years...

*** *** ***

it's all my fault.

i'd broken your heart.

but you shattered mine too.

i can't blame you..

coz i deserved it.

i'm really sorry.

you may had think it wasn't sincere but it truly came from the bottom of my heart.

my heart really ached when i came to think of it every time.

i really had the guilt of letting you down.

now,

all's forgiven..

but i'm still feeling very remorseful and i just don't how to face you.

still, my love for you have never changed..

heart.

warmth

2006-01-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

hmm thanks for everything yesterday. it's really great to be with you..

the lights shone.

but we faded together into the darkness of the night.

it was a night hard to come by.

your hand warmed mine in the chill of the night..

how i wished i could hold on to that hand ..

forever..

how i wish ..

that moment could stay..

i'll miss you..

*** *** ***

hmm saw Fann today again.. haha =D i love Fann! =D

tomorrow marks a new beginning..

well, i really wish that the holidays could last longer..

this long rest is really hard to come by..

i really hope that these days can continue but well, i'll have to face up to reality.. i can't possibly slack through my life..

let's hope all will be good for all! =D

happy 2006!

2006-01-01T12:51:00.000+08:00

well, for a start, happy new year to all again!

hope that the new year will be an even greater year for all! =D

well, i'm actually not the type of person that will do up any New Year Resolution coz i normally won't think that much b'coz the new year will still just pass by fast like the other years just like that.. haha.

well, actually i just hope that i'll be always happy for the new year. that'll be enough.. haha! but to make me happy, well, haha...! *winks*

hmm and of coz i wish that everyone around me will stay healthy and always happy..

most importantly, world peace =D (really lor.. i don' like war =D)

ok, i promised this person i must write about her today. haha! =P

chiu yee, i couldn't have passed through the previous year without you.. thanks for being there for me. i'm really sorry i didn't include you in my rounding up of 2005. there's just so much to write about.. sorry. but from the bottom of my heart, i really wanna thank you for being there when i needed you always. thanks lao ma! hmm it's the new year le! let's put the past behind us.. let's start afresh! =D all will be better this year, trust me.. have a great year ahead! =D

hmm just another day of enjoyment and it's back to school for me..

actually my feelings are just so contradicting!! i still wanna continue my holidays! this is one of the better holidays that i've enjoyed coz i've slacked through the entire hols without touching my books! haha! how i wish this could continue.. but on the other hand, the first day of school just seem so exciting coz i don't know what's gonna happen! haha..

can't wait for tonight =D *winks* let's hope all will go well =)

and if you all don't mind, pls tag me.. haha.. the board's getting rusty.. lol. and also i wanna see who've been here.. lol =P

hmm in the meanwhile, i'm just gonna enjoy the last moments of my holidays! chaos! =D

it's 2006!

2006-01-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

happy new year!

goodbye 2005

2005-12-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

well, look at the time now. we've reached the last day of this year!

for me, i felt that 2005 hadn't really been as good as 2004.. there were ups but there were also many downs i've experienced for the year..

firstly, let's talk about the more recent stuff. the gap between my mother and i really spaced out but fortunately, through some means and an advice from someone, i finally broke that gap apart and we're of coz on our usual close relationship =D

next, then there's the lonely festive season i had alone.. hmm...

then there were also some kinda bad stuff going on during the hols. but well, everything's settled =)

before that was the 120th dinner, scandals of all types, criticisms, insults ...

well, as you guys know, i'm Hong Heng. i'm not that easily defeated.. and here's what i've got to say: (it's all over my profiles - Friendster, my bloggy..)

* There's people talking. They talk about me. They know my name, they think they know everything. But they don't know anything about me.

* People all around me, everywhere that I go. People all around me, they don't really know me. Everybody's watching me like I'm some kind of show. Everybody's watching. They don't really know me now, forever...

* I try to make it happen, try to make it alright. I know I make mistakes, I'm living life day to day. It's never really easy but it's ok.

but at the end of the day, all these just make me stronger than what i am before.. and for that, i'm actually quite thankful that i've become more matured and more understanding of things around me..

before that, there was my sour birthday incident that really made me aware of things too.. you know too, i don't needa repeat myself.

as for before my birthday, it was my most packed period of the year juggling CCA and school work. hmm well, though the results weren't really what i wanted, it somehow put a nice fullstop too all of the hardwork put in..

but apart from all these sad and sad-turned-happy stuff, there're of coz the great stuff for the year too..

firstly, Hua Pings was officially established on 19th Feb. i'm really very attached to the group coz us trio will always have lots of stuff to talk about and i'll always remember the good times at the Esplanade! =D love you gals! =)

then there's 4H! the chalet was really awesome.. i really enjoyed it alot, especially the food part too ;P LOL! just kidding.. of coz without people from the class, the chalet will not be fun.. lol.

then i also gained a kor this year.. hey Willy, thanks for all the good times, care and concern =D though you're always claiming that you're no good, which seems quite true, you'll still always be my dearest kor =D brothers forever =)

last but not least, you're the one who made my year had a U-turn from bad.. you're the one who made me enjoyed happiness which i didn't thought of. of coz, you're the one who also added on to my worries and troubles. but i guess, for now, i think life won't be as such if you aren't around. being with you on the phone or together is like a habit le.. and i really don't wanna kick away this habit.. thanks for everything. you made this year a truly memorable one..

so did all of you out there made this year a memorable one indeed!

of coz before i end off, i wanna tell all of you around me, my family (esp. my grandmamas and mama and all staying with me), my friends out there and you, I LOVE ALL OF YOU! =D

let's enjoy the last few minutes of the year.. cheers =D

protect..

2005-12-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

hmm if you wanna try flavoured protection, think twice.. you'll end up losing the flavour in just a bit.. ew... ;P

*** *** ***

time will not turn back or stop for us..

the good times are meant to be treasured and cherished..

i promise to treasure our precious little time together..

h e a r t

heart

2005-12-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

if you really mean to do something, nothing can stop you..

if you don't mean to do something, all reasons are just excuses..

everything's well reflected in your heart..

***

fate brought us together.

it's difficult being together.

it isn't as easy as i thought it would be..

but..

i guess i'll hold on..

though it's not easy, but i guess with your constant love and care, it's worth everything.

heart..

go and come

2005-12-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

hadn't been blogging much these days coz i've been spring cleaning my house these few days. yeah, it's early alright.. i'm afraid i won't have time once the new year starts ;)

i almost wanted to cry when i cleared my house for the previous two days coz i didn't know i had so much rubbish!! i could really earn a sum if i sell that to the karang guni alright.. actually i'm gonna do that la.. haha =P

lucky my mama's fren gonna help me send the unwanted goods to the karang guni HQ.. haha. cool eh? still got HQ de wor.. don't play play wor.. haha =) that's also recycling too. yay.. so i won't throw away too many things =)

*environmental friendly* =)

as for today.. went on a shopping spree that's scheduled for tomorrow.. keke.. yeah. it's hard for me to clear out all the old things, and now, the new ones come in..

but as the saying goes the new ones don't come in if the old ones don't go.. so, since the old things are cleared.. of coz i need to add new stuff in my house! =P

despite the 2 full days of packing, i'm 60% doneONLY! oh god.. yeah.. that bad.. i just simply got too many stuff!!

then after clearing this house, i needa proceed to my other house to clear up my room over there too..

:exhausted:

hmm.. well, thank god there's nothing much over there =D

gonna go back to packing le..

enjoy the last few days of the year! =D

christmas 2005

2005-12-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

well, after a long year of rushing, it's time for us to slow down our pace and enjoy the festive season again..

though this christmas hadn't really been an ideal one, but well, nothing's really that perfect..

there're still more christmas ahead, am i not right?

hmm recently, a lot of people told me that i'm very blessed..

and indeed, i'm very blessed..

i've so many people loving me and doting on me..

what more can i ask for?

i'm just shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu..

well, i know i take things for granted..

but i'm slowly learning to treasure the things around me..

i guess i need time..

mummy dearest, i haven't said this for a long time..

mummy, i love you..

*** *** ***

i was left alone..

the silence of my room surrounded me..

the wait for your call seemed endless..

when i decided to give up, you called..

however, my fragile heart was already broken..

you left me alone and heartbroken..

i hate you for that..

i tried to ignore..

but i just can't bear to..

you mean so much to me..

i can't turn back time..

well..

i didn't know i mean so much to you too..

i love you..

h e a r t

the eve of christmas 2005 - day

2005-12-24T14:32:00.000+08:00

just came home from swimming and i'm down with a flu -_-

to clear things, the previous entry was just my personal translation of one of S.H.E's new songs, "Bu Zuo Ni De Peng You". Thus, my version was "Can we not be friends" =)

well, it was drama eh? ;) sorry to disappoint those who thought that it was one of my own personal work..

hmm i promise i'll work hard to come up with my works in the future! =) i'm just not so emotionally advised yet as compared to before *winks* =)

well, everyone's busy preparing for x'mas as it seems..

as for me, i'm taking it light this year. no more sentosa/parties this year.

my wish is just to have a silent night, a silent night of my own.. but under circumstances now, don't think i can have my ideal silent night le =( [vicky, cy, n megastar, you know what i mean.. *sigh*] guess i'll have to wait another year..

anyway, have a great day & nite ahead..

season's greetings =)

can we not be friends?

2005-12-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

Slowly, I lose my memory.
I must forget all the things associated with you.
The pool of love
I'm afraid that it'll just freeze with just a drop of tear.
I don't wanna let you know that
I was once touched by you.

Don't hold my hand,
And say I'll know it.
Failing to be lovers, we become friends.
Don't take me by my hand,
And think of someone else.
Changing a style of holding my hand won't be any better.
Can we not be friends?

Slowly, my heart ache.
Nobody realised that I was different from the past.
Your eyes can only see another person who touched you.
I don't want your sympathy.
You treat me more gentle than before.

The sky that should be clear is still raining.
Don't be like that.

I'm sad but I just can't say it out.

I keep running away.
I thought I can just forget everything when I shut my eyes.
My memory starts from the rainy day of 23rd July.
Slowly passing by,
The crossroad we passed by together.
No matter how much I walk, I just can't reach the end.

Can we not look back?
Can we just let go?
Can we not be friends?

soup circle

2005-12-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

hmm... thanks empress wei yue for your present! =) really like it.. so adorable!! keke.. thanks so much =)

happy tong zhi everyone! =) today got my favourite tang yuan! keke.. yipee =)

but hor, eat le means one year older leh =( hmmm.. *wo bu xiang, wo bu xiang, bu xiang zhang da ...* S.H.E!!! =P

you're not forgotten

2005-12-21T15:38:00.000+08:00

hmm firstly, i wanna tell regina that i really do miss you alot. sorry for not contacting you in the holidays! i'll make it up to you de.. cya on 3rd Jan at SAJC! =) lotsa love =)

similar for the rest, if i've neglected you for the holidays, i'm sorry.. i'll make it up to you guys de ok? keke. we'll find time to go out during the weekends when school reopens (for me) k? many loves too =)

well, for the rest of the holidays, i think i'll be at home preparing for the new year. there's this christmas party my mummy will be holding at home this weekend so i guess i'll be stuck at home for christmas =( sad case..

after christmas, i'll need to start packing up my rooms in both my houses. gee.. that'll take long =( i guess by then, the new year will begin.. well, so much for my holidays!

my apologies to my dance club for not returning to help. i really want to but circumstances now aren't in favour of that. just some personal reasons, i hope you guys will understand. i know it's hard to put everything together. but i guess that's the only way you all will have to go through and learn now - to be independent.. cheng pin (aka hong heng no. 2), hang on there! you'll do fine. jia you, everyone! i promise to be back when school reopens! all the best for the coming CCA orientation! =)

many loves to all =)

2302

2005-12-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm had a little gathering at ACC chalet for the past 2 days.

thanks cy, dg, yx, xh, sam, fish and vicky for gracing time on sunday nite =)

it was definitely great to be together again though we had nothing else, other then majong, to play.. lol =P it was really hard on you guys coz you still had to work. i really appreciated all of your presence =) loves =)

just wanna tell you guys that i'll miss ya all and i really appreciate everyone of you as my best friends! =)

***

hmm thanks for pei-ing me for the second day too! =) it was really great to be able to cycle with ya. thanks for all the guidance! =D i love cycling now! =) i'm gonna take up blading next and you're supposed to teach me yeah! =P

it was really great having ya around with me for the nite.. how i wish time could stop then.. i did treasure the nite's time and i really have no regrets about it =) i wanna go back to yesterday nite!! keke =)

well, there'll be more chances ;P

thanks for everything that you've done for me =)

heart.

***

1 week with 4 nites in chalets was definitely tiring.. needa get back my rest now..

lethargic..

:sleepy eyes: *yawn*

you

2005-12-16T15:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. have been thinking about things around me recently..

i just don't like the feeling of having to keep in contact with friends with only me taking the initiative of contacting them and not having receive the same treatment back.

i mean ... i don't like being taken for granted..

well, maybe you're busy.. i don't blame you.. sometimes i'm like that too..

but sometimes, it's just that it's kinda sad that i'm always the one taking the initiative for some friends. what if i stop some day? does that mean the end of everything?

everything's just so contradicting..

i miss school days suddenly.. i could be gossiping every day and enjoy the fun of being around with everyone.

but now ..

it's just so hard to get together with my friends. practically everyone's working!!

last year's hols was still fun-ner, i guess..

hmm i'm just so relaxed now. i've slackened so much.. i really find it hard to get back on working mode again.

people say that to rest is to prepare you for a longer journey ahead.. but i think too much rest will get you addicted!!

well, let's hope everything will go smooth =)

christmas is coming.. wonder what it would be like.. would it be a lonely one this year? =(

peace.

pae results

2005-12-16T10:26:00.000+08:00

don't ask..

don't bombard me..

it's SAJC =)

kiss my hand

2005-12-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

was away at costa sands pasir ris for my primary school gathering for the past 2 days.

everything was great and it's really good to be able to catch up with everyone.

most important of all, thanks to Andy, Siang Meng and Clement, our planners and sponsors for this time round's gathering. now you all know it's not easy to plan such stuff eh? *winks* still, a million thanks =)

well, of coz this time round, we had enough laughs just by giving each other new names =)

wendy evolved from a crow to Ms King Kong =) hey.. your posters are everywhere! you're
famous! =P

mei ling changed from Yong Tau Foo to Won Ton Mee. Ms Giraffe Chang Jing Lu? =P

fu hao = door bitch. i love your tee man!! =) kiss my hand =P

jeslin, li lon't lwant luan lei.. lol..

well, it wasn't easy for wen hao to differentiate coke, sprite and bacardi, little india, bugs bunny and mini toons. lol.

oh ya! i finally learnt cycling after the failed attempt with jeslin on the double bike. lol. i learnt it in just ten minutes! woo-hoo! all thanks to my coaches, fei, jeslin & jade.

it's just i don't wanna learn only lor. coz i scared later i fly off the bike and end up with scars all over. lol! see, i so good =P

but i landed on my bum once yesterday when starting my bike session coz i forgot about the brakes when coming down a slope. lol! how himbo! =P but everything's fine! =) i'm gonna conquer blading next! hehehe =P

anyway, i really wanna thank everyone present at the place for giving me such a memorable and fun time these two days. hope to see ya all in January again, that is if Ms King can help do up another gathering! =) till then, take care and happy holidays! i love ya all! =)

*** *** ***

thanks lots for making the trip down. really feel guilty seeing ya so tired. my heart really ached alot. anyway, thanks for the chocs =) i really appreciate all the things you've done for me.. i love ya =)

tanned

2005-12-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

hot day.

tanned. yipee =)

1112 2005

2005-12-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

well, today's another enjoyable day..

was at one of my fave restaurants for dim sum in the morning.

then proceeded to JEC to catch Fann in the afternoon =)

went to a rather popular family restaurant for dinner with the entire family to celebrate my grandmother's birthday. yay.. happy birthday ah ma! =) i love you =)

late ... again

2005-12-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

sorry wor vicky.. didn't mean it today. someone delibrately made me late for an hour. you've heard it over the phone ;)

and coz of that person, shopping scheme spoilt =/ only managed to go round Taka B1 to get some presents..

but anyway, thanks lots yeah =) really did enjoy myself with ya. thanks for showering me with all ya love and concern =) *huggies*

nothing much to update here though..

everything's cool.. i'm almost fully recovered le =)

tmr's gonna be a busy day again ... =)

i'm ok =)

2005-12-09T16:02:00.000+08:00

thanks for your concern! =) i'm ok le =)

feeling much more beta now le.

was feeling terrible yesterday. extremely terrible..

lucky i had my family with me. dono how i could survive without them.

i love my family!! =)

well, it would be even beta if you were here by my side ;)

*** *** ***

hmm sometimes, it just feels kinda bad when people don't understand you and you don't quite agree with their side. it just feels so bad, really.

i just don't like it when people say i'm lying when i'm not. no offence, but..

well, in any case, just take it as my fault. i'm sorry for all the unhappiness caused..

-_-

2005-12-08T18:29:00.000+08:00

feeling terrible.

extremely sick..

-_-

afternoon at the island

2005-12-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

went tanning at the island today =)

well, sun wasn't out for long but at least n megastar and me did soak up some of the sun's rays..

took photos too.. keke.. of which are rather amusing lor.. lol.. check out our friendster for more updates ;P lol.

thanks for everything today. really enjoyed the time at the beach ;) loves =)

sorry guys for not soming back. since you're all done, i guess there's not much need for my presence. keep it up and all the way! i'll be rooting for every one of you =)

hey vic, agree to the party on 19 dec leh ;P it'll be fun =P come on *winks* =P

cheers! =)

kids anyone?

2005-12-06T16:56:00.000+08:00

hmm well, yesterday almost the whole family came to my grandmother's house for dinner coz it was my grandfather's anniversary..

played with my little nieces.. keke. my youngest niece was bringing me round the house in circles.. so adorable.. became her part-time boyfriend for the nite too. lol..

furthermore, being so popular with the children, my other niece dragged me together to play with them still. lol. was kept rather busy for the nite playing with the little kids.

then i was wondering about kids..

it's just adorable kids like my nieces that encourage me to have kids in the future..

but to think of it more..

it's just those irritating kids running around in the mall, screaming and obstructing traffic that discourages me from having children in the future..

how contradiciting.. lol.

hmm well, let's just take a step at a time *winks* =)

fann crazy

2005-12-04T17:20:00.000+08:00

today got star awards on channel 8 & u!

hmm pity can't go see Fann 'live' today coz not enough tix. argh..

go Fann go.. go Fann go!!

i love FANN! =)

twist, turn, shoot.

2005-12-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

N90!

woo-hoo!

love ma new phone =)

thanks lots to my beloved uncle. love ya =)

he will be so blessed *winks* =)

loves =)

sick?!

2005-12-02T15:44:00.000+08:00

hmm feeling a little miserable today.

that day when i was returning home from chalet, i saw a huge (it's really HUGE!) mosquito on the bus and it had white strips! ew..

isit Ades mosquito?!

then i realised insect bites on my hands yesterday! ew...

gotta wear jacket out these few days.. so ugly!!

but the thing is ... i think i got bitten!!

i dono leh.. how?!

i was feeling a little jelly-like and giddy this morning when i woke up and when i tell me grandmother, she laughed at me lor.. very farnie meh?

i don't wanna die so early!

help!!

my holidays, my way

2005-12-01T15:44:00.000+08:00

finally another free day..

had been rather tied up ever since the holidays debuted.

and finally december has arrived.

time really flies! keke. my most loved month of the year has finally reached.

well, i guess it'll pass by real soon.

but i'll treasure the time. my month coz i can relax all i want before another 2 busy years start.

enjoy the feeling of being 'shao ye'.. haha =P

jia you to those who'll be working out there! i'm rootin' for all ya guys! =)

i guess there's nothing for me to explain reagrding so many of my rumours ba. i just let people think whatever they want coz ultimately, it's their thinking lor and they choose to believe what they want to. and even if i explain, people will still doubt me rite. so i guess that's what i've to say ba. think what you want coz at the end of the day, it's my life =) end of story, full stop. =)

will upload more pics into Friendster since it's the starting of the month =)

gonna plan my schedule for the month later. keke..

peace & many loves =)

4H @ Sentosa 2005

2005-12-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

28-30 Nov 2005

finally returned home from the chalet today afternoon. so lethargic. only had total of about 4 hours of rest for the last 48 hours when i'm not home.

eng kien had to be 2 hours late on the first day. looks like i can pass on the late king title liao =P

well, thanks lots to Siew Huai for the preparation of the food. my first time at a chalet that i don't needa prepare food =P

was just playing around in the room before the bbq on the first day. haha. took lotsa photos with Nadiah. with both of us & maio, there'll definitely be stupid jokes and fun. haha =P

bbq was fun! it was the first time that i didn't cook and i ate from the start till the end of the bbq. normally i won't have much appetite but i think i ate the most that nite. haha! it was definitely a great time joking around and mixing around.

had some vodka too which tasted like cough medicine. but at least it was sweet la =P keke..

hmm stayed up till 4 plus for the first nite despite being so tired! haha. was actually doing the treasure hunt thingy with the people in my room. lol.

maio, han rui, nad and some of them were complaining of my snores. haha. not my fault! i'm just too tired. haha!

the second day's tresure hunt seemed like a toil for some. hmm well, sorry if you didn't think it was fun and sorry for doing up such a tough one. but you're not the only one. i went through that twice just for planning! lol =) so we're quits ;P

was sun tanning with Siew Huai, Zhenshun and Nadiah while the rest was busy with the treasure hunt. the other 2 hua pings also joined us too. keke. took pics too! keke ;P i finally got back my tan! haha! =P was fun playing in the water too! =P

joined Neil and Euge at Sakae for lunch and beer. then went over to Bikini Bar for some wine and pool! keke. well, it's my first trial at pool and i think i can handle it quite ok ba. keke. yipee! =P and I WASN'T DRUNK! i was jus high-er than normal, that's all! they bluff me de. they said the wine will eventually become sweet but it was "sweet" they were referring to coz it was still rather bitter =X lol =P but was fun la. anyway, thanks dear for the social etiquette lesson though =P

got caught in the downpour with Vicky too while heading back from Palawan's 7-11. it had been a long time since i've been caught in the rain. well, coz i don't like to be caught in the rain coz i don't wanna ruin my hair but since i didn't style my hair for the previous few days, might as well lor.. keke.

met Char, Maio and gang at the Underwater World station. haha. so pathetic. all of us were hiding from the nasty thunderstorm. keke. went back to the chalet when the lightning cleared with Samantha. then went back to get Yifang. Ouch.. my feet hurt.. keke. then there was this couple making out at a bus station and used the umbrella to cover. haha. lol! =P

finally got showered and ate dinner at 12mn. haha. became more sober after being drenched in the rain. not so high after that le. lol =P

well, at least i can hold liqour beta than Kok Yong. haha. Kok Yong so fast drunk de! a couple bottles of Vodka and he's drunk. lol. so funny =P

thanks for accompanying me wor =) thanks for sheltering me from the cold of the nite. haha. shouldn't have wore so little =X oops.. keke. quite romantic at Palawan's Twin Tower eh? *winks* lol =P thanks so much for everything wor =)

i still find it surprising that i lasted through the second nite! normally i would be so lethargic that i can't help falling asleep. haha. *more winks*

hmmm, i still can't get the tongkat ali, Sufi and his vicks! haha. but at least i found someone who depends on vicks like me! hi-5, Sufi! lol =P vicks rocks! =P

finally checked out a few minutes after 10.30am and headed for Harbourfront. Had breakfast-cum-lunch with Vic before going home. finally got my desired rest when i got home. Keke. home-sweet-home =)

anyway, i sure brought back many fond memories from the chalet this time. it was really a different experience for me altogether. i'll definitely miss everyone even if i don't like you *winks* =P

last but not least, i love all of you guys in 4H(2005)! =)

island life

2005-11-30T01:25:00.000+08:00

tired.

hate rain.

sian.

island life.

love it.

in sentosa..

dying =P

lethargic

2005-11-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

tired.

exhausted.

lethargic.

feeling extremely drained of energy these few days plus not much rest.

how am i gonna last through the next 2 days.

oh god.

island life, luv it.

after today, i've second thoughts about that.

lol.

islander life! =D

Fantasy: GESS Graduation Night 2005

2005-11-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

Reinvent yourself; My fantasy, my style

i guess everyone's expecting me to turn up in some nice coat yesterday. well, sorry ta disappoint everyone ;P

i feel that you always need to reinvent yourself. you needa a style change. hence, with advice from my dearest uncle, who was inspired by his fave Madonna of the idea of reinvention, i decided to reinvent myself again.

enough of all the big, formal clothes. bring on the new style ;)

well, my fantasy was to be the next model/spokesperson for Adidas and Levi's. Cool eh =P

simple, cool, sporty and funky. that was what i wanted to portray yesterday nite. and i really hope i did =) why clad yourself in something not your age? =P

hmm and i wasn't supposed to be a racer but if you did think so, hm.. then think it that way. as i said it many times, different people holds different opinions =)

The Nite

Arrived rather late at the ballroom with cy, vicky and gang and the attention of almost the entire ballroom was on us. yup yup. Oops, we did it again =P

and we finally settled at the 'Reserved' table after me being couragous enough to ask Mr Giam if he was sitting there and if we could settle there. lol. well, fengshui not bad. a pretty and friendly waitress to serve us and we were extremely near to the food. but i was rather disappointed that it wasn't a 8-course dinner though =P *greedy*

as expected, the whole nite's focus was pictures/photographs.

yeah. me was also nominated twice as the Prom Prince. but didn't win la. not FANTASIZING enough. lol =P hmm but was wondering which other table nominated me.. well, thanks anyway =)

thanks for all the support =) i love ya all =)

anyway, i casted votes for Vivienne and Jasper. was mainly coz of Vivie that i voted for the couple. hmm actually, all along i liked Vivienne alot. but don't be mistaken! like as in admire. i do admire her alot, as a fren, as a fashion queen, as a pretty lady, as a good dancer ... hmm seriously, i dono why. but just really admire her alot as a fren only! keke. don't get me wrong ah, marvin =D

there're of coz other gals out there i admire alot too as frenz. it's just that i don't mention ya all here. but rest assured. you're all in my heart, my dearest frenz =) things like these need not necessarily be said out de =)

anyway, congrats to Kok Yong and Fang Yi for winning the title of Prom Prince and Princess =) Way ta go! =D

anyway, yeah, cy and yunxin really did stun me. lol *wink wink*

last but not least, i love all of you guys and i'll really miss all of ya =)

hope all of ya out there did enjoy yourselves as much as i did =)

SOME photos are already available on my Friendster le. you guys can go take le. but if you can't find the ones i took with ya, it's not yet available. i've exceeded the limit, as usual. and really sorry if the photos i took with ya are not in the profile pics. space constraint =) all the photos will be put up ASAP k? =D

anyway, feeling very lethargic up till now. didn't really have much rest. tomorrow's another long day..

Nitey & Lots of Love =)

slacking

2005-11-24T15:58:00.000+08:00

today's another slacking day. yay..

woke up at 11 plus as usual. it's my waking up time these days. and furthermore, i'm having my breakfast and lunch as one meal these days too. 2-in-1! hehe =P can go on diet too =P (been piling up on my weight during the exams >.<)

it's actually rather boring these days slacking at home but it's still great having nothing to do coz for the previous years, i've been so damn hectic. i'll treasure and enjoy these times. i won't have such times once the new year debuts.

moreover, i can accompany my dearest grandmama =) i love her =)

and some more, me family don't allow me to go out work. coz they want me to be prince at home. haha =P lol. and furthermore, my expenses will be fully covered. hahaha =P so i'll just be prince for these one plus months *gloats*

well, actually being able to work out there and gather experience is good but since my family's so protective, i'll go with their wishes and be good boy ;P

*** *** *** *** ***

i'm sorry.

it's all my fault. zhi guai wo?

hung up.

emotionally advised.

shopping spree

2005-11-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

to start today's entry, i wanna let everyone know that i know what is cy's future job ;P *wink wink*
chocolate, vanilla, DURIAN or STRAWBERRY? LOL.

hmm cy's supposed to stun me on friday at prom. oh god. lol =P i guess i'll most probably stun everyone with what i wear, like always. lol. but it's really STUNNING this time. lol =P *evil grin* hehehe..

today's shopping spree with my uncle was fun. he came out with what i should wear this friday. haha. thanks =) bought lots of stuff too. yay.. =P

*** *** *** *** ***

hung up.

l e a v e .

i'll miss ya.

i love ya always.

oops, i think i did it again

2005-11-22T13:50:00.000+08:00

anyway, from now on, I DECLARE THAT I WILL BE FINANCIALLY INDEPENDENT. I WILL NOT TAKE MONEY FROM MY AUNTIE (FROM LONDON), UNCLE AND MOTHER (for the time being). I WILL SUPPORT MYSELF BEING A HIGH-MAINTAINANCE TYPE.

~~yes. that came out from me. i will do that. yes, i am very determined.don't worry about me. i'm fine. i will do fine.i will survive without them.~~

ok. i'm taking this back. (like always)

my uncle talked to me yesterday le and told me lotsa experience. yeah. i'm overprotected. my family loves me too much. they wanna protect me from everything. yeah. anyway, i've already gave up my ear holes. so just let this matter end ba. period.

yeah. my family loves me. i shouldn't blame them too much ba. so i guess i should just let this episode past and let everything slowly return to normal though i'm still a little pissed.

anyway, my uncle's bringing me out for shopping tmr *evil grin* :innocent:

hey kor, jia you in your confession. i'm supporting you =P bleah. loves =)

thanks dar for everything. i love ya =)

vicky, i'll miss ya. lol. remember to enjoy yourself wor. miss me too wor =P

gotta go to school soon le ba. guess i'll be bored later so maybe i'll be back. chaos =)

i just wanna be myself

2005-11-21T15:23:00.000+08:00

18 Nov 2005

exams are FINALLY over. well, not much feelings after all.

Ms Lee's leaving GESS =( next year she's not gonna give us results le. sadden-ed =(

I'll miss ya =)

went out with Willy kor till about 3 plus. hmmm thanks for everything that nite. i really did enjoy myself. thanks wor.. will really miss that nite coz i didn't stay out till that late before in the past. nite life's fun. many loves to ya, kor =)

thanks for sending me back yeah, baby? hmmm.. i love ya =)

19 Nov 2005

woke up at around 8 plus. felt so lethargic coz i only went to bed at 4.30am. oh god.

went to gym and then headed for my stylist. finally had my hair cut. yipee..

was the first time me and vicky felt so bored and tired during shopping. both of us sure lacked sleep.

finally got my ears pierced but... (see below)

went to watch a concert with shu mei in the nite too. got Lee Sheng Jie, Joi Chua, Ocean, Nicholas Zhang and my fave Jolin Tsai. cheapo lor. Jolin only sang 4 songs while the rest, 5. Argh..

anyway, Jolin was still so adorable.

thanks lots to shu mei for the concert. anyway, how's your ear? lol =P

20 Nov 2005

went out again with vicky but at least we were more energised. went to check out clothes for grad nite. headache.. still dono what to wear. haix. how to FANTASIZE?

went to my fave place for a breather(is that what you call it?).

hmm.. felt really peaceful. keke..

*** *** ***

anyway, got a fcuked up scolding session from my paernts for piercing my ears (mind you, EARS = both sides). well, i was portrayed as selfish and disrespectful.

somehow, i broke the agreement with my auntie from London. she was always sponsoring me but there was 3 conditions that i forgot until yesterday.
(i) no piercings
(ii) no dyed hair
(iii) no tatoos
only until i've grown up then can i do whatever i want.

well, the ear piercing wasn't really planned. i just happened to pass by 77th Street at Far East Plaza and remembered that all along i wanted to have my ears pierced. thus, i just went to pierce it coz i like.

well, i somehow got grounded le unless i took those ear studs out. damn. $10 down the drain. fcuk.

well, after a long miserable nite, crying out loud, complaining to my darling grandmother, n megastar, chiu yee, willy kor and vicky, i definitely felt beta. thanks for all the concern.

and i finally took out the ear studs today. ouch. i'm not admitting my mistake but i'm just carrying out part of my new plan.

yes, i do hate my family now except my grandmother but i'm not doing this deliberately. i'm just furious for the time being. since i've already pierced, why can't just leave it as that? fcuk.

who the fcuking hell laid the rule that guys with pierced ears are gangsters or can't get good and decent jobs. i finally realised how Maia feels. it's just so fcuked up.

anyway, from now on, I DECLARE THAT I WILL BE FINANCIALLY INDEPENDENT. I WILL NOT TAKE MONEY FROM MY AUNTIE (FROM LONDON), UNCLE AND MOTHER (for the time being). I WILL SUPPORT MYSELF BEING A HIGH-MAINTAINANCE TYPE.

yes. that came out from me. i will do that. yes, i am very determined.

don't worry about me. i'm fine. i will do fine.

i will survive without them.

i love my grandmother & grandparents.

i love n megastar.

i love chiu yee.

i love willy kor.

i love vicky.

i love all of my darling friends.

I WILL MAKE IT.

fcuk.

PEACE.

[Sorry for sounding so offensive today. Do forgive me. I'm just still angwee =)]

o levels days 04 - 06

2005-11-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

day 05 (yesterday) was hell of a long day.

aching from head to toe. haix.

sickening woman refused to pass me that fcuking puncher yesterday.

"try poking a hole through the paper and make it bigger"

hello, tidiness count. it'll make my paper so ... eww ... lor. have some common sense.

just gimme the freaking puncher!

*angwee* =/

examiners are just so pragmatic. they just can't wait to leave. even more anxious than us lor. i know it has been a long day but well,

- speechless -

anyway, the worst's finally over.

there's just still only another subject left before the end.

gee, how time flies. keke..

yipee!!

about another 29 hours more and i'm off to party..

woohoo!!

e n d u r e